“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
― Lao Tzu
Today and for the past week I have been thinking about how when one starts truly focusing on the things they need to, they start changing. I guess you might can say this could even be a sign of growth. One thing I am starting to know for sure is there is nothing wrong with change and we should not fear it.
Even Lao Tzu, an ancient Chinese philosopher, talks about change and how we need to let it flow naturally forward. This actually got me thinking, is change something we can control? If not, then why do we try?
For instance, we get in a relationship sometimes with someone that has a lot of baggage and we say, "I can change him or her." Then when a few months or years go by, and they are still the same, we say that a person will not change unless he or she wants to. After reading Lao Tzu's quote, I can't help but wonder if the reason why that person has not changed is because it is not there time and they have not set it in motion.
Over the last few months I have been learning who I am. I am learning my likes and dislikes. I am even learning what I will and will not tolerate. At the same time, I am working on all aspects in my life. I call it a healing process because since I moved out of my mom's at 18 years old, I had to find out who I was and when I did, I would get into relationships and lose sight of my dreams, and goals. Oh I knew I was a female, I researched a lot before transitioning. I just didn't know my worth.
When I moved to New York, I was at my rock bottom and I knew that in order for me to be a successful woman I could not continue to use drugs because if I did, I would end up in jail or worse. So, I got off the drugs, started the transition, and did a soul search. I was doing good but I would always get in relationships and lose focus on me.
So here I am in Los Angeles. Focusing on myself and as I mentioned, working on all areas of my life. This is even including my credit and being responsible. I see myself growing and changing each and every day. People may not like the change that has came over me because I no longer act the way they think I should. I control my own life. It is my choice not to resist change because I am aware that I set it in motion. I did this because I wanted to meet myself and watch the little girl in me grow into a beautiful woman.
So as I close this entry, I encourage all my readers not to fear or resist change when it comes your way.
Until next time, be safe and be blessed.
